It's WEDNESDAY! Half of the week is gone! Half a week closer to A levels :( BOO...
I was either pissed or emo. Somehow, I just didn't like training today. We started at 4pm with some stroking and then mini-competitions that were hardly productive. Then, we played Dog-&-Bone, using shuttlecocks. Fun... but not training at all. I think leisure playing is more beneficial than this. The drills were just some plain ones, nothing interesting, and before I can even get into the hype of training, it's 630pm and we packed up! WTH?! For once, I think training was so slack and meaningless.
On another note, I realised that I'm not an observant person. I don't know about "secret 1" and "secret 2" when it is obvious to the whole world! And worse still, "subjects" in secret 1 are relatively closer friends of mine!!! Then, there is another person, just when I thought I know him/her very well, I actually realised that I don't know him/her very well (at all)! I realised that the relationship here is based on something... which is very periodical. HAHAHA. (I'm trying to censor myself from saying too much stuff here) I only know so little and realised that we are actually two worlds apart! (apart from the fact that we study in NJC...) These two incidents really hit me hard and I feel so bad about it. I just don't know so many things happening around me. All I cared were LS, Thailand Trip, SSEF and blah... I feel so separated from the community around me. Lonely.
Dad and Mom are leaving for Japan tomorrow morning, so that makes me more lonelier. erm.. yes, lots of freedom, which I don't really crave for. Perhaps Irwan was right, I look quite like a mommy's boy.
Shall listen to Class 95 tonight.... not in a mood for Perfect 10.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
conflicting interests?
Man... I'm the most "senior" player in the team and yet they chose to leave me out of the team. Really disappointed with the team and myself.
4 years of contribution, but at the end of the day, the effort is not recognised. but I'm also disappointed with myself because I really missed lots of training due to other commitments. but come to think of it, what can Badminton REALLY give me? we fought hard, but effort is not recognised at all?! VC decided to use the hall as replacement without even considering the problems that other CCA groups will face. She decided to listen to the solutions after making decisions! Wth is that?! Besides, LT is presentable enough for college day activity already!
This issue really makes us think what does scarcity really means? We are constantly running out of time and resources. So does scarcity exists because of the lack of resources, or the insatiable demand for more resources? One is the physical aspect of scarcity, while the other lies in the mentality of man. Sadly, the repressed greed can never be eradicated; man chooses to justify using the inherent definition of the word "insatiable". What an evil word.
The relationship between two people can sometimes be cynically defined as a partnership to maximise both parties' benefit or welfare. But a meaningful relationship (not necessarily Love okay!) goes beyond, or rather does not even consider the existence of benefits and welfare. It is because of the interest of the other person which makes friendship or love unquantifiable, or more romantically known as "priceless".
To me, doing questions and helping out was never a chore. In fact, I've lost count how many times have I helped "ABC". I willingly accept and yet I naively expect something in return. How many times have I sat in front of "ABC", just to squeeze a few minutes of interaction time in the tightest schedule of mine? So bad of me, I shouldn't expect things in return right?
The movie "The Leap Years" really provides a romantic dose of reasons for someone to learn why Love is worth your wait; why seemingly naive or improbable promises between two people can stand the test of time. I agree with what the lead actor said during the interview, he said,"being away from your love one for just a month can be extremely excruciating, you can never imagine how 12 years can be like to anybody".
Totally agree.
Think I shall watch the movie this weekend... wonder if I can find anyone to watch with me. I suppose most of them will want to watch PS: I Love You instead....
4 years of contribution, but at the end of the day, the effort is not recognised. but I'm also disappointed with myself because I really missed lots of training due to other commitments. but come to think of it, what can Badminton REALLY give me? we fought hard, but effort is not recognised at all?! VC decided to use the hall as replacement without even considering the problems that other CCA groups will face. She decided to listen to the solutions after making decisions! Wth is that?! Besides, LT is presentable enough for college day activity already!
This issue really makes us think what does scarcity really means? We are constantly running out of time and resources. So does scarcity exists because of the lack of resources, or the insatiable demand for more resources? One is the physical aspect of scarcity, while the other lies in the mentality of man. Sadly, the repressed greed can never be eradicated; man chooses to justify using the inherent definition of the word "insatiable". What an evil word.
The relationship between two people can sometimes be cynically defined as a partnership to maximise both parties' benefit or welfare. But a meaningful relationship (not necessarily Love okay!) goes beyond, or rather does not even consider the existence of benefits and welfare. It is because of the interest of the other person which makes friendship or love unquantifiable, or more romantically known as "priceless".
To me, doing questions and helping out was never a chore. In fact, I've lost count how many times have I helped "ABC". I willingly accept and yet I naively expect something in return. How many times have I sat in front of "ABC", just to squeeze a few minutes of interaction time in the tightest schedule of mine? So bad of me, I shouldn't expect things in return right?
The movie "The Leap Years" really provides a romantic dose of reasons for someone to learn why Love is worth your wait; why seemingly naive or improbable promises between two people can stand the test of time. I agree with what the lead actor said during the interview, he said,"being away from your love one for just a month can be extremely excruciating, you can never imagine how 12 years can be like to anybody".
Totally agree.
Think I shall watch the movie this weekend... wonder if I can find anyone to watch with me. I suppose most of them will want to watch PS: I Love You instead....
Saturday, February 23, 2008
really wanted to blog about lots of stuff for the past week, but I forgot what am I suppose to write the moment I sign in to blogger. LOL!
let me try to recall..
Dad can never be a philosopher
Whenever dad gets grumpy, his dramatic emotions are spewing all over the place, as if he is always right. Then, his super-duper memory will just began recollecting all the "sins" of the past and start listing them out one by one. (yea.. talk about precision memory) Subsequently, all the arguments will either be flawed or fallacious, or worse still, becomes VERY SLIPPERY (absolutely frictionless!) All I can do was to stand, stare and nod, tell myself that I will find a better time to talk to him when he comes to his senses.
Family??
Though I'm eighteen already, I think I'm still to dependent/reliant on my parents. They simply decide everything for me and I don't seem to have a problem with that. Most teens out there will be craving for some freedom and let it all out, but I will seriously sit and stone at home. People like Reg, parents don't even care if she returns home and 11 for mugging!! For my case, I have to give them a "thesis-long" explanation to them and requires some sort of "approval"?! Sometimes, I think my parents are too free? And that is why they have so much time to care about this and that.
LS
I think organising this is really tiring? It seems that the teachers are deciding TOO much for the committee! We must have this, this, this and this... So there is no point in being too creative when they want the simplest design. Even Estella finds the posters a bit plain, but she can't do much since she is under Ms C's control. My sympathy goes out to Jamie as I know that she has lots of potential when it comes to designing these stuff, but the teachers are not taking her work and kind of rejecting it all the time. I think this is really demoralising given that Jamie has to put in quite a lot of effort to this while juggling with all the German papers and Danceworkz stuff.
Today's SMU training was rather dry, despite Edmund's effort to spice things up once in a while. I think Sheryl is really inexperienced in this type of work. She didn't even introduce herself to us when the breakout session started! Dude, that is PR101?! Then the case study given was too governance-related, rather than business-related. Hardly have anything to do with driving up profits by increasing sales or lowering production costs. There isn't much dilemmas to resolve as everyone agreed on the same set of solution, which is obviously developing Bali into an nature tourism! I don't think we need a group of JC students to do that, even a secondary school student can think of such solutions.
US Politics
It seems that Obama is really doing great and seems to be the democrat representative. Of course, my vote goes to him too! haha. I think his policies will really turn America around and people will trust that his humble backgrounds will make a difference in his term of presidency. Environmentalism, tax cuts, ending the occupation in Iraq will really be a radical change for America and I think it will work out under the leadership of such a charismatic and visionary person.
let me try to recall..
Dad can never be a philosopher
Whenever dad gets grumpy, his dramatic emotions are spewing all over the place, as if he is always right. Then, his super-duper memory will just began recollecting all the "sins" of the past and start listing them out one by one. (yea.. talk about precision memory) Subsequently, all the arguments will either be flawed or fallacious, or worse still, becomes VERY SLIPPERY (absolutely frictionless!) All I can do was to stand, stare and nod, tell myself that I will find a better time to talk to him when he comes to his senses.
Family??
Though I'm eighteen already, I think I'm still to dependent/reliant on my parents. They simply decide everything for me and I don't seem to have a problem with that. Most teens out there will be craving for some freedom and let it all out, but I will seriously sit and stone at home. People like Reg, parents don't even care if she returns home and 11 for mugging!! For my case, I have to give them a "thesis-long" explanation to them and requires some sort of "approval"?! Sometimes, I think my parents are too free? And that is why they have so much time to care about this and that.
LS
I think organising this is really tiring? It seems that the teachers are deciding TOO much for the committee! We must have this, this, this and this... So there is no point in being too creative when they want the simplest design. Even Estella finds the posters a bit plain, but she can't do much since she is under Ms C's control. My sympathy goes out to Jamie as I know that she has lots of potential when it comes to designing these stuff, but the teachers are not taking her work and kind of rejecting it all the time. I think this is really demoralising given that Jamie has to put in quite a lot of effort to this while juggling with all the German papers and Danceworkz stuff.
Today's SMU training was rather dry, despite Edmund's effort to spice things up once in a while. I think Sheryl is really inexperienced in this type of work. She didn't even introduce herself to us when the breakout session started! Dude, that is PR101?! Then the case study given was too governance-related, rather than business-related. Hardly have anything to do with driving up profits by increasing sales or lowering production costs. There isn't much dilemmas to resolve as everyone agreed on the same set of solution, which is obviously developing Bali into an nature tourism! I don't think we need a group of JC students to do that, even a secondary school student can think of such solutions.
US Politics
It seems that Obama is really doing great and seems to be the democrat representative. Of course, my vote goes to him too! haha. I think his policies will really turn America around and people will trust that his humble backgrounds will make a difference in his term of presidency. Environmentalism, tax cuts, ending the occupation in Iraq will really be a radical change for America and I think it will work out under the leadership of such a charismatic and visionary person.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Not so romantic after all... haha
-A romantic fall-
many of us watch in drama series and there will always be some scene where the guy makes some sort of contact with the girl. e.g. the bus driver hits the brakes and the girl next to you just fell onto you.
as much as you want it to be a romantic moment which you won't forget for the rest of your life, it didn't really turn out to be that romantic for me. haha.
so it was like another 852 bus trip home. living up to their names of being "reckless" drivers, the bus driver suddenly hit the brakes and XXX just fell onto me. I had three choices:
1) just let her fall
2) push her back up
3) open your arms wide and catch her. give her that electrical stare. haha.
I chose.. or rather, subconsciously chose option 2! it's like a natural reflex! i was using my fist to cushion her fall and push her back up. then, we continued on our conversation before she fell. so no big deal. TVs are really delusional nowadays, especially for those taiwanese idol drama series.
-Pre-U-Sem-
Went for the first Pre U sem session and it is all about intensive and serious discussions, debates on current affairs. it is crazily mentally taxing and i could hardly focus on any texts when i went to NLB in the afternoon. i ended up sleeping in NLB for 1.5 hours.
-LS-
With 2 months left for organizing the event, I can already feel the heat and pressure from the teachers and this is really driving me crazy. it's tonnes of stuff to process and this is simply madness. got to thank aloysius who did the website which hardly anyone knows it's existence.
many of us watch in drama series and there will always be some scene where the guy makes some sort of contact with the girl. e.g. the bus driver hits the brakes and the girl next to you just fell onto you.
as much as you want it to be a romantic moment which you won't forget for the rest of your life, it didn't really turn out to be that romantic for me. haha.
so it was like another 852 bus trip home. living up to their names of being "reckless" drivers, the bus driver suddenly hit the brakes and XXX just fell onto me. I had three choices:
1) just let her fall
2) push her back up
3) open your arms wide and catch her. give her that electrical stare. haha.
I chose.. or rather, subconsciously chose option 2! it's like a natural reflex! i was using my fist to cushion her fall and push her back up. then, we continued on our conversation before she fell. so no big deal. TVs are really delusional nowadays, especially for those taiwanese idol drama series.
-Pre-U-Sem-
Went for the first Pre U sem session and it is all about intensive and serious discussions, debates on current affairs. it is crazily mentally taxing and i could hardly focus on any texts when i went to NLB in the afternoon. i ended up sleeping in NLB for 1.5 hours.
-LS-
With 2 months left for organizing the event, I can already feel the heat and pressure from the teachers and this is really driving me crazy. it's tonnes of stuff to process and this is simply madness. got to thank aloysius who did the website which hardly anyone knows it's existence.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Happy Valentine's Day
Valentine's Day 2008, so it's my last V day here in NJC. Love is pretty much up in the air. A few CCAs are "exploiting" this special occasion and trying real hard to expand their "treasury". This simply shows how cash-strapped we are. Councillors played a huge part by decorating the place and having Trent (eligible bachelor) making announcements for today in his charming and cute voice. HAHA!
Happy things:
-My hair looks exceptionally dashing and standing up straight, just like a tsunami crashing onto the shores. HAHA!
-Lots of chocs, cookies, little gifts from friends!
-I gave out Ferrero Rocher again! The same old thing, but no more folding of roses though.... perhaps next time. Perhaps.
I wondered how did V Day became Friendship Day? V Day is meant to be for couples! What has that got to do with friends?! Somehow, I think Friendship day came about for the sake of those miserable souls who just can't stand being single, so they seek solace among each other. You know... gotta kick the love-sickness away and cover it up.
Training was pretty boring today. Just plain lobbing and free lance playing. Shuttlers were rather lazy today.
So many things to say... shall find another time to post it...
Happy things:
-My hair looks exceptionally dashing and standing up straight, just like a tsunami crashing onto the shores. HAHA!
-Lots of chocs, cookies, little gifts from friends!
-I gave out Ferrero Rocher again! The same old thing, but no more folding of roses though.... perhaps next time. Perhaps.
I wondered how did V Day became Friendship Day? V Day is meant to be for couples! What has that got to do with friends?! Somehow, I think Friendship day came about for the sake of those miserable souls who just can't stand being single, so they seek solace among each other. You know... gotta kick the love-sickness away and cover it up.
Training was pretty boring today. Just plain lobbing and free lance playing. Shuttlers were rather lazy today.
So many things to say... shall find another time to post it...
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